So amidst reading Jesus for President and An Irresistible Revolution and also just having a lot of time to think, I find myself aching to find my own revolution. I know in order to do that I have to actually put myself out there and literally actively search for it. But I'm not sure how to go about that. Do I have the courage to go hang out with the homeless population in Honolulu? Certainly not. And what would I say to them when I got there. What on earth do I have to offer. And what about when I leave. I'm about to become a leader of many young minds (though many not much younger than myself) but how do I reflect the life of Christ to them without forcing my own beliefs onto them. And again... what do I really have to offer?
I was never much of a conversationalist. I prefer to listen. I don't have any great wisdom to impart. I literally cannot think of a single talent I have that could enrich their lives.
I guess at the moment there is not much I can do about my future in Boone. And my present... i have no idea. Continue to live selfishly for another month and a half? Sure I am volunteering time at FOCUS but.... I'm not really sure thats what Jesus had in mind.
curses.
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