3 of these things I really didn't see coming at all.
1. Seriously dating someone. I told Dusty, and myself, over Christmas that I was going to go the entire semester (o-em-gee i know) without dating because it would be good for me and I didn't want to get attached and I didn't think I was really ready and I was just going to leave to go to San Diego anyway. Dusty laughed in my face (ouch) but in retrospect she knew more about what was probably going to happen than I did. She knows me well and I love her dearly for it. One of the more hilarious moments over Christmas break was when Marcus (dusty's brother) stole my phone (i had been texting kyle constantly for a few hours...or...weeks) and sent kyle a message that said something along the lines of "I want to kiss you all over your body" I was mortified and dusty was laughing so I put her in a headlock and threw her onto a giant beanbag chair. I tried very hard to tell everyone and myself that nothing was going on and we were just good friends (blahblahblahblah). Then on New Years, Kyle spilled the beans to Dusty that he "liked" me. Eventually I was clued in on what was going on and I honestly had no idea what to expect. I simply told Kyle that we would talk when I got back because I didn't want to have that conversation on the phone. After that all I wanted was to get back to school and talk to him but I had to wait a few more days... I was a little surprised at my strange desire to actually come back to this blessed place. Like I said, totally not what I expected. So finally Sunday rolled around and Dusty and I made the long haul back to school. We got back and ate dinner and then Kyle came over to my apartment at around 9. I sat on the couch and he sat in a chair and threw skittles at me. We watched movies (I discovered how cheesy and awful Independence Day is) and talked about the break and school and everything under the sun except what we were supposed to be talking about. He finally stopped the pointless conversation at some point (perhaps around 2am) and mentioned that we had not talked about IT yet. And I shook my head and said no we haven't. He was hideously evasive but I probably was too. Around 230 we finally got to the point where the both of us had admitted to having feelings (hahahaha... oh dear... 80% of all men surveyed*...) for each other. And then proceeded to start talking about other stuff again. At about 3:15 (note...he had to be up at 7am that morning) he said "So are we done with that conversation?" I replied with "I guess so, do you have anything else you need to say?" "uhhh not really" "ok I guess we'll just see what happens" "ok, i guess i should let you get some sleep" "perhaps" So around 3:30, after an extremely awkward hug, he left and I passed out. On monday or tuesday (i can't remember now) we went out to dinner with Dusty and Corey and then watched a movie. Marking the first time he held my hand. It was somewhat hilarious how it occurred.. and a little violent. But sweet. Two days later, we were sitting on the couch watching a movie and he looked at me kind of funny and I said "what?" He pondered for a moment and then said "So would it be too soon if I kissed you?" I was taken aback that he asked and a little nervous (how old am i...seriously!!!) so I said " I don't know" (HAHAHA. bad response) So he did anyway... and it wasn't too soon at all. :) Then we both left for the weekend (oh the humanity!) and on the following Tuesday he asked me to be his girlfriend. Obviously I said yes. The next weekend I ended up going home with him and met his family (woah) and had a great time. So it was a crazy beginning but perfect in its own way. I was surprised by everything and he continues to surprise me everyday. He is hilarious, passionate, caring, sweet, intelligent, quite handsome, honest, and a million other fantastic things. I have not felt this joyful and peaceful in a long long time. He has turned my world upside down.... but in an awesome way.
2. It snowed. Twice. I don't think any of us saw that coming. Absolutely fantastic. I know that many people would think it silly and strange that I am so excited about snow, but I don't care. There is something about watching snow fall that is calming and inspiring. Last night I just sat by my window at 1am and watched it fall. I love walking outside to a fresh blanket of snow. It seems to quiet everything. You can walk outside and it seems like time has slowed and the world has settled down for a nap. Incredible.
3. My older brother getting engaged. I mean... it was quite obvious to me, after spending time with him and Brittany that they were pretty much head over heels but it still threw me for a loop. Even after having so many friends get engaged and married and even having kids, the realization that my brothers and I were old enough for something like this to happen took my breath away. It was one of those moments when your mind flashes back to memories of your siblings as small children. Like riding a bike, or trying to break your ankle, sledding, playing on the beach, Christmas in PJs... and I thought.. umm no. thats not possible. But it is. I am so incredibly happy for him and for Brittany. I'm excited to add on to my fantastic family and to spoil my new nephews... and to finally have a sister!!! I cried a few times that night, but Kyle and Dusty were both there for me and I recovered and realized that I should be happy for them not sitting there being sad for people growing up too fast. I am so thankful friendship that I have with Camden and the privilege that it was to grow up with him.I told myself be happy for the past and get excited and hopeful for the future. And I am.
This is, yet again, an excessively long post I realize. but when I get on tangents (and when I have a paper to write) I tend to just go on and on. So now for that paper...
I tend to be
Stuck in minor key
Then pale monotony
Holds me down
But luckily
You are so dear to me
In your charity I go home
[Shine- Blue Foundation]
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